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Where to from here? [May. 19th, 2007|06:44 pm]
Dunder-Mifflin Scranton (An Office RP)
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Jim stood nervously outside Pam's door. Even though he had told her that he was coming, he still did not want to have come at the right time. Tonight was definitely going to be important. The day had already been very eventful and they hadn't even done all that much around the office.

Still, he was debating whether or not to knock. He could just turn around and run away. And when he saw her again at work, he would just make up some story about how he had not been feeling well and that he hadn't gotten a chance to call her before he passed out.

But that might hurt her feelings. She might suspect that he'd left on purpose or that he wasn't at all interested in being friends with her again. That was certainly not the case. He just didn't want to mess everything up this time. He wanted it to work. He wanted for them to be friends again.

He also wanted to fix whatever mess he'd made between him and Karen, but that was another battle.

Taking a deep breath, he knocked on the door. There was no going back now.


From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 02:29 am (UTC)
She promised herself that she wouldn't cry, but, she lied. The tears were welling before she could stop herself.

"I know you can't, Jim," she said. She had started this, and she would end it.

"I was confused, and upset when you left....I thought you were being selfish because you didn't get the answer you wanted, and best friends shouldn't run out on each other. But, after a while, I was happy, because, well....I was on my own for the first time. And I was learning to like, even love myself. I realized that I was so much more without Roy. And I know I didn't call, but, but, you didn't either. And, when I heard that you were coming back, I thought-"

She ran out of breath, but the tears, the tears had disappeared.

"I love you, Jim. I know that I missed out, I missed the boat, and you've got someone better than me now, and I know it's no use, but I do. I'll always love you. And even if we aren't friends or anything like that anymore, even if we can't get back to the way we used to be, I'll never forget the way-"

She meant to say, "I'll never forget the way we were", but what came out was:

"I'll never forget the way you make me feel."

She frantically put down a 20 for her food and gathered her coat and purse. She never meant to take it this far.

"I-I should go, I need air," she stammered as she ran for the door.
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 02:41 am (UTC)
Jim sat there in silence for a few seconds. He didn't even know what to say to that. It was almost too much. Too much at one time. He could barely even process everything that she had said.

He couldn't just sit here. People were starting to stare and Pam had just rushed out. Jim could hear the whispers getting louder. They had made sort of a scene. He dug in his pocket for his money, left it on the table and ran out after her.

"Pam!" he spotted her outside, standing at the curb. "Pam, I'm sorry. I know I didn't call you. I should have. But I-" he paused, she wasn't looking at him or showing him that she was paying him any attention, but he continued talking anyway. "I convinced myself that it wasn't going to work and that you didn't want it. But why now, Pam?" he stopped for a second. "I missed you too. I want to be friends again. I just-I didn't know. Pam, I'm not comparing you to Karen. The two of you are different. I just-we were both too late."

He bit his lip nervously. He'd been standing behind her the entire time, now he made his way over so that he was now beside her. "I'm sorry." he said again, but this time he put an arm around her shoulders comfortingly and hoped that he wasn't about to make her even more upset.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 02:51 am (UTC)
She didn't mean to do it.

He had put his arm around her to comfort her, he was talking, and it was a knee jerk reaction. She whirled around in his arms and kissed him. Kissed him like he kissed her on Casino Night, unrelenting and intense.

"I know I shouldn't do this, but tell me that you don't feel anything for me, and I'll let it go," she whispered against his lips. "We can be friends, and it'll be okay again."
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 03:01 am (UTC)
For a moment he couldn't move. Honestly, he wasn't sure that he wanted to and when she pulled away, he considered pulling her back in. Of course Karen came to mind at this moment and he decided against it.

"I-" Jim began. This really wasn't fair. He couldn't do that. He couldn't say that he didn't feel anything at all, because he did.

"I can't tell you that. But I can't do this either."
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 06:42 am (UTC)
Pam took a step back from Jim, and hung her hands at her side. She really was too late, and all the honesty in the world couldn't turn back time. She had to face facts, and move on.

She nodded. "I guess we never got our timing right, huh?" she asked, not really to Jim, but to the air. She started to walk over to his car. A deep pain went through her chest and she leaned herself against the passenger door.

Then, something in her mind clicked, and reminded her of something she said herself. When Jim didn't get the answer he wanted, he ran away. He didn't stick it out, he made sure he got a transfer beforehand, just in case. Why hadn't she thought about that before? Just then, Pam began to love Jim just a little bit less.

She turned to face him.

"I'm not gonna run away, Jim. I won't do what you did," she said, her voice strong, with no trace of sadness. "This, really....really fucking sucks, but I won't do that. Above everything else, we were friends, and I don't want to lose that. And, I don't want to disrespect Karen either."

She walked over, and kissed him lightly on the cheek.

"I'm sorry I did that," she said. "Let's start over."
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 06:51 am (UTC)
Jim looked down at his feet. Her words kept repeating in his head.

I'm not going to run away. I won't do what you did.

"There was nothing left for me here, Pam. It wasn't all about you. Casino Night, it wasn't the beginning. It was just...just the icing on the cake really. Maybe I did leave because of you, but it wasn't just you. I've always hated it here. You know that. And when it didn't work out with you, there was nothing that was worth staying for. So, thanks for helping me decide. Thanks a lot." he said bitterly.

"What are you even sorry for?" he paused. "You didn't do anything. I can't just start over. It's not that easy."
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 07:51 am (UTC)
"I was trying to fucking apologize for throwing myself like a desperate puppy just now, Jim!" Pam shouted.

The air was tense around them as she spoke. They were on the defenses, on separate teams. This was officially, a disaster.

"Would you have taken the transfer if I had broken it off with Roy that night?" She grabbed his shoulders and forced him to look into her eyes.

"Or did you figure that you waited long enough for me to come to my senses and wise up? I just....I'm so confused right now. I'm trying so hard to be strong and understanding. I needed you, Jim. I knew you hated it here, and I also knew that I hurt you. I don't mean to make myself out to be self-centered, but I want you to understand where I'm coming from. You weren't the only one who felt trapped in a place that was going nowhere."

She felt like she was going nowhere in her explanation, and maybe it was just time for her to shut up and stop digging her own grave.

She let him go, and walked back to the car.

"Take me home, Jim," she said. "Just....please take me home."
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 08:51 am (UTC)
As much as he wanted to argue back, he didn't. He didn't want to make it worse than it already was. This was a mess, there was no denying it and it was just about entirely his fault. The whole lot of it. He had done this. Pam obviously wasn't in a position to start fixing things, honestly neither was he but someone had to say something. One of them had to keep from yelling and making this even more screwed up than it had already become.

"Pam..." he walked slowly over to her side and when he spoke his tone was soft and gentle. He was trying his hardest not to sound as though he was mad at all. "Pam, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said...all of that. I wasn't- I didn't mean for it to sound like I was being selfish or like I was accusing you of anything. I'm just- I'm sorry." Jim sighed and reached out to brush his fingertips lightly against her right shoulder. "I love you, Pam." the moment he had said that he instantly regretted it. Whether he meant it or not, now was most definitely the worst possible time. Right now he was quite sure that she could not want anything more to do with him.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 09:26 am (UTC)
I love you, Pam.

Didn't she just stop loving him a little bit only moments ago? But, as soon as she heard him say those three words, her body began to buzz and her mind started to reel.

Just as he began to step back, she grabbed his jacket lapels and pulled him close to her. She didn't grab him to kiss him, but just to make herself clear.

"Don't do this to me, Jim," she warned. "Don't say that because you feel bad, or because you feel guilty, or if you need an excuse at all. Say it because it's true. Say it because you want me. Say it because it's a truth that makes you so happy that you'll shout it to the world.

"'Cause if you did, I know I'd scream it so loud, I'd be hoarse."
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 09:35 am (UTC)
Jim put his hands on top of hers and held them there for moment, just looking at her.

It was oddly quiet outside, like someone was straining hard to listen. It was peaceful, yet sort of eerie at the same time.

"I'm not saying it just because I feel bad or because I feel guilty or anything like that." he paused and took a deep breath. "You make me happy. I love you." he spoke this last part just a little louder.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 09:46 am (UTC)
Pam felt the weight of his hands on hers, and she thought she could hear the blood rushing in her ears.

"I'm afraid," she blurted, the first thing that came to tip of her tongue. "I'm afraid because I might be dreaming, I'm afraid because you might be kidding, and I'm scared because I want to kiss you again. Badly."

She really wanted to kiss him, but he wasn't hers.
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 09:57 am (UTC)
Jim took a deep breath in.

"I wouldn't joke about something like this." That would be beyond cruel. It would just be wrong. After all that they had done and said to each other. Their friendship (relationship?) whatever it had suddenly become would not survive.

"Pam..." he said, not so much for her to answer him. He just wanted to say her name. She didn't say anything back, so he pulled a hand out from under hers and ran his fingertips against her cheek. With the same hand, he brought her lips to hers and kissed her again, gently. He didn't want to push her.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 10:09 am (UTC)
She closed her eyes and heard him say her name; she loved hearing him say her name.

If this was a dream, she was determined to experience every sound and every nuance.

She brought her hands from his lapels, and slipped them into his thick, soft hair. Bringing his head down to hers, she kissed him back, pressing her lips to his, firmly, but not too much. She didn't want to push him.
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 10:20 am (UTC)
He kissed her back, pulling her close so that her whole body was pressed up against his.

Jim couldn't remember the last time he'd felt like this. He didn't care that they were outside, didn't care that they were in the middle of a parking lot and he most certainly did not care that all the people who came and went in and out of the resturant probably saw them. It didn't matter in the slightest.

At last, when he couldn't hold out any longer, he pulled away to breathe. Although he wasn't that far away at all, his lips were still lightly brushing against hers.

"I-" he paused. "I don't even know what to say." he admitted with a little laugh.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 10:37 am (UTC)
Pam's body was soon pressed tightly against his, and she felt as if she was going to die.

"I don't know what to say either," she replied breathily as she ran her hands up and down his back..

It felt like the entire world disappeared. Roy never, ever made her feel like that.

She teased the tip of her nose against his, as if she were inviting him to kiss her again.
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 10:43 am (UTC)
He kissed her again, making this one more meaningful and more passionate than the rest, if that was even possible.

"You don't think-" he kissed her neck and rested his head lightly on her shoulder before kissing her lips again. "-we should go?" he finished, pressing her lips to his and not waiting for her to answer.

Jim pulled away slightly, but the distance was hardly noticeable.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 10:52 am (UTC)
When he pulled away from her, a soft, contented sigh escaped from her lips.

"I think," she quipped, grinning, "you gotten all my gloss off. And yeah, we should be going. We've made the transition from customers to loiterers."

She waited for him to open the passenger door and got in, and as she sat, he head lolled back. Dreamily, she watched Jim as he started up the car. And, in her mind, she whispered a prayer of thanks.
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 10:58 am (UTC)
Jim smiled over at her, thinking that this had turned out a whole lot better than he had expected it to.

He'd almost forgotten that they had to go to work tomorrow. "You've got work to look forward to." he said with a grin.

But maybe, work might not be as bad as usual. And whatever the consequences of tonight were? He'd deal with those later. Right now they were unimportant.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 11:10 am (UTC)
"Oh yes, Dunder-Miflin, that bastion of fun and excitement," she giggled.

Dunder-Miflin, also the home of Jim's still very current girlfriend. She shook the thought out of her mind, as she looked over to see Jim's warm smile. For a few more minutes at least, he was hers, and she loved him, and he loved her back.

That was all that mattered.

"Oh!" she exclaimed, "I know this is odd, but I have some brownies that I made, and I made a really large batch. They're good, and that's the reason why you should take them off my hands so I don't eat them all."
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 11:20 am (UTC)
He knew that he would eventually have to tell Karen about he and Pam, about everything that had happened between them. But Karen didn't even know the half of it. That didn't really matter to him right now.

"I'd be happy to take them off of your hands." he said with a smile. "Thanks." he said, smiling again. It seemed like he couldn't stop. It was hard enough for him to concentrate on driving.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 11:29 am (UTC)
"Jim, can you please watch the road!" Pam laughed. "I'd like to be delivered to my house in one, maybe two, pieces."

He pulled into a parking spot, and the ride was over. It was funny how the ride to dinner had seemed so long and labor intensive, and the ride back was breezy and swift.

She put her arm in the crook of his as they walked up to her door.

"Just wait in the living room for a sec, and I'll put the brownies in some Tupperware for you," she said as she unlocked the door.

Slipping her shoes off on her way in, she skipped off to the kitchen to ready the treats.
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 11:33 am (UTC)
Slipping off his shoes, he ran up behind her and whispered, "If I bring you somewhere in two pieces...do I get to keep one." he laughed and slid his arms around her waist, kissing the nape of her neck.

He had been so nervous and worried before and now he was happier. Much happier than he had been previously.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 11:40 am (UTC)
Pam dropped the container of brownies on the counter and squealed. The feel of his lips on her neck was just too much, and she lifted her hand to caress his face.

"I guess that depends, Halpert," she said, turning around to face him, "on which part you intend to keep."

She winked exaggeratedly and slipped her arms around his neck; she had to stand a little on tip-toe. She never imagined she could be so brazen, so free.
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From: heyheyhalpert
2007-05-20 11:44 am (UTC)
He kissed her back and laughed at her reaction. "I like both parts. Can I have both? How about it, Beesly?" he asked mischievously.

Jim wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her higher up on his body. The brownies were forgotten and really, Jim didn't care. This was so much better.

Smiling, he kissed her neck, cheeks, forehead and then settling on her lips again.
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From: onelinebeesly
2007-05-20 11:58 am (UTC)
This is what heaven is like, Pam thought as he kissed her. He held her up in their embrace, wrapping his large arms around her waist. "I think," she replied, "that can be arranged."

"I really could kiss you forever, you know," she whispered between each kiss. She pulled away and pressed her lips into his neck, peppering it with kisses.
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